I think i may have gelotophobia?

Hello ill just start off my saying a little bit about my life i live in canada im a male and im in highschool im close to a cheery person but sometimes i get bad deppression where ill just watch youtube videos of deppresing songs and will want too cry. all started last year when i came too highschool i made friends with mostly everyone but there would be that group of people that bothered me just about everything it didnt bother me too much untill just this year when i messed up pretty bad and alot of people started hating me, i use drugs alot which helps me cope with my fear but i i Dont know what it is about me but when i get made fun of its like the worst feeling imginable and i just sit in my room and want too cry I dont even know how too explain it, and just knowing that theres people who hate me and want me dead kills me inside, Ive thought about suicide many times but will never have the balls to actually do it. There's another school by where i live that im wanting too go to, the only problem is it has a real big problem with drugs and my mom doesn't like that, shes the only thing stopping me from changing schools and i feel that if i dont leave its just going to get worse and worse, i dont know what to do anymore and i'd just like some advice from anybody as that's what i really need right now while i sit here crying. I also want too know your oppinion if you really think i have this phobia